Long Recap.

HOLY CRAP. Okay, I'm not even sure where to begin. Stick with me here.

Wednesday night: The 2nd biggest drinking night of the year. The entire cast/crew from SUYM goes to OUR bar (DiMarco's) and Rollo & I get absolutely tore down. There were SOOOOOOO many people there, and SOOOOOO many good times to have been had. To boil it all down, Rollo and I hung out with Grant, Katie, Pat and Tiffany for a bit. Rollo started the night off with a friggin' BANG. He killed 3 shots of jack while holding down GOOD conversation, then killed his beer right after that. Not long after he killed the beer, he got all wound up and asked what he just did... yada yadda yadda, you get the point. I kept drinking til I ran out of money. Thats when I thought my night was over... Little did I know that it was just beginning. After my friends got me good and destroyed, we decided to hop to a few bars. This is where things get a bit fuzzy.

I remember going to the Highland House and seeing even more people I know. I even got to see Alyssa Trynock! That was nice. I don't remember what I drank there but I do remember ending up at another bar that WASN'T the Highland House.

There was a live band at this bar, and they were GOOD. They played a bunch of covers from different bands from Fuel to Marilyn Manson. The real surprise was they played a BUNCH of Weezer songs. When "Say it ain't so" came on, Rollo and I got to the head of the crowd and then he began moshing! What the hell!?!?! Who mosh's to a Weezer song!?!? Either way, some girl was taping the entire thing and she got a real kick out of it. I loved that they actually played MY song. Good times.

I remember people buying me all kinda drinks here, but all I can remember drinking was a Jager-bomb. Holy God, I needed a night like this. There were so many friends of mine at these bars and I'm so glad I got to hang out with them and meet the people I met.

After the bar, I ended up driving back to Megan's place for a sleepover. Don't ask how I did it, but I managed to drive thru Taco Bell for Rollo and get us back to Meg's in one piece. Friggin YEAH.

I stayed the night there with Meg & Beth. Beth kept me up til 5am, but it was fun so I didn't mind. Meg dozed off somewhere in there, and Rollo left for Meg's bed. Meg, Beth and I slept on the floor. Good night!

(It's Thanksgiving now) When I woke up, it was 9:00am and I was fresh off about three hours of sleep. So, I bid my lady friends a good morning and go home. I got 20 more minutes of sleep, then it was time to shove off to Ashley's house to have Thanksgiving lunch with her family. I really wanted to make a good impression on her parents because for some reason her mom hates me... I'm not entirely sure as to why, I'm not dating her or even trying to for that matter. If she should hate anybody, hate Dave damnit. LOL (IM JUST KIDDING ASHLEY, call off your dogs). Anyway, after a REALLY ackward lunch with her family, we watched the first half of the Lions / Falcons game. Crumpler really was tearing up for Rollo. (fantasy football) At halftime we went to my house for dessert.

Mom really came through with the dessert. Each of us ate til we were packed full. We then watched "Wake up, Ron Burgundy" the extra movie from Anchorman. When Ashley left, Rollo and I watched the Denver / Dallas game. It stunk so I played some acoustic guitar for a while with him. I'm not as good as I'd like to be with the guitar, but I'm making lots of strides. :-)

Rollo left around 8:00pm. LaResa told me that "Finding Nemo" was coming on at 8:30, so I watched that and got a shower.

You'd think my day would end, already?
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NOPE!
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After watching the movie, Megan tells me to come over. So, without haste, I travel to her apartment. Once I get there, she, Beth and I all begin pranking people. I think I told some dude that I was pregnant. I can't remember. Meg kept tryin to prank my ex's but being the prolific dude I am, I wouldn't let that happen! (propz to me). Then Rollo walked in. So now it's me, Rollo, Meg and Beth.

Rollo & Beth head for the living room and Megan and I stay in Meg's room. She tells me she's got a song to sing to me. I love it when she sings to me. Turns out, she's singing the Dashboard Song I was rockin' out to on the way over here! So we both sing the song together. :-) "Your hair is everywhere..."

When we go out to see Rollo & Beth, a FOOD FIGHT breaks out. Completely out of the blue! Megan smashes an egg on her floor and then hits me with the shell. She hits Rollo with the Parmasean cheese and then throws stuffing in my EYE. It was the coolest foodfight ever. Rollo also got hit with a bisquit.

Not long after this, we sat down to watch Nicktoons. I'm extremely happy. Rollo ends up leaving. Meg, Beth and I pile into my truck and we go to K-Mart. At this point, its 1:15am on the day after thanksgiving. So Meg proceeds to make a scene in K-Mart while Beth & I try to make it look like this is our normal friend. We get jello & cups and head for sheetz. Beth & Meg grab some MTO's and doughnuts and we head back to her place. We rock out to "My Humps" and "The Remix to Ignition" as well as a few country songs in there on the way back.

When we finally get back to Meg's, Megan decides to heat up her sandwich. It's got a foil wrapper. I, unfortunately, am sleeping on the chair and Beth is on the couch. Beth says "Meg you can't put that in there." but at this point the sandwich has been in there for about 25 seconds. Meg opens the microwave and the paper is on FIRE. She tries to blow it out, but then turns around and yells "CROCK!" then immediately fills up a cup with water. Before she has a chance to throw the water on it, I say in a calm voice "Fire's out, sweetheart." and a laugh is shared by all. It's time for me to leave, so I head home.

What a couple of days I've had. :-)

Lovin' every minute, lovin' every moment.

-Crock

Good Times.

Helloooooo. What an important weekend I've had! It's important because its like the 3rd in a series of successful and fun-filled weekends. I spent most of the weekend hangin' at Megan's playing the "Battle of the Sexes" board game. My team (the dudes) usually lose, but we're better at this game than you'd think. The girls always end up getting the "FEMALE" card that says "You're friggin Jesus in disguise - advance to the end of the game and declare victory." I tell you, when it comes to this game, we cannot get a break.

Regarding my few hockey games; I played spectacularly. In the first game I notched 2 assists and followed up with a hat-trick (3 goals) in the second game. I was extremely happy that Ashley, Dave, Erica and Karen got to see this. I can thank them for this game. I wouldn't have been as intense if the stands were empty. Thanks, guys.

After my hockey game, I went to Meg's place again and she sang me a great deal of songs, which was very sweet of her. Although, she gave me a pretty hard time this weekend, she's pretty essential when it comes to having a good time. GOOD TIMES! I cannot wait for her 80's party next weekend - you can bet I'll be in costume.

In the SUYM realm, we cranked out another radio show. Download it here. The coolest part is that we're really starting to get a better grasp on the flow of material in the "radio" format. The most fun part? Well that's on the out-takes. Rollo & I do some warm-up exercises to get the creative juices flowin'. One of those exercises was so much fun that we put it into our 5th broadcast as a commercial. It's our *ROCK OUT* to "Black Betty". Lots of fun putting these things together.

Lastly, Thanksgiving is rapidly approaching. I've got more plans this year than I think I've ever had in regards to dinners I need to attend. I'm really happy about that too, it shows that I've got lots of people that care about me in my life - and that's what it all comes down to - people who care.

November's almost over, and it hasn't been so bad at all. I'm hoping that everything just keeps getting better and better. It's to the point where its difficult to sleep because I'm really looking forward to tomorrow. :-)

Later on,

-Crock

Goofin' Around.

I've got some different news for those of you who read this and would like to come to my hockey game this weekend. It's more like hockey games. Here's the schedule for saturday night:

• 8:00pm game 1
• 10:00pm game 2

These games are against the same team (I believe) since they were a no-show a few weeks ago. This means there will be an hour's worth of downtime in between the first and last game. So, if you had planned on coming, I'll get to chill with you for about an hour inbetween games. That'll be fun!

Now to to goofyness. I'm sure you're all aware that SUYM spent a lot of time in the studio lately. Whenever we go into the studio to do any kind of serious work, we always pad what we like to call our "Out-takes Reel". It's comprised of mainly deleted scenes and unreleased recordings. I'd like to share a sample MP3 with you right now. It's our parody of the old folk song; "Down by the Riverside".

Download "Down By The Riverside" by SUYM.

That's all I have for you at the moment.

-Crock

Headlights & Skylines.

Driving home from Uniontown after totally trashing Ted at NFL2k5, I notice two things: the road ahead of me and the sky above me.

I'm a man of metaphor, and here we go:

I loved this scene for two reasons: First, the road ahead symbolizes the path ahead of me. It's full of twists and turns, ups and downs, peaks and valleys. Whichever way I look at it, though, it's still my path. Whether I like it or not, thats the way it's gonna be. Nobody's going to change it. I certainly can't. I like what I see.

The second reason I liked it is because of the skyline. It reminds me that, while I'm not at rock-bottom, I've still got only one direction to go - and thats UP. The skyline was crowded with trees, which I associated with "bumps along the way" in my attempts achieve a higher level.

Enough with this.

I've dedicated the greater portion of this week towards convincing Erica to come to my hockey game this weekend. She went to my last one, which was really awesome of her. If you haven't realized it by now, I really love it when people come to my games. I don't know why it changes my game, but it does. :-) If I may borrow a line from Jet and direct it at her...

"Oh, please come around again..."

I've also decided to take a week away from frisbee to regain some focus in my life. To all which this decision may affect; I'm sorry. I try to think that I'm not greedy or selfish, but I need some time to myself - some time away. To the few I've talked to about this, you're more than understanding; and God knows I need that right now.

During my week away my plan is to go back to my old training style. This involves (quite heavily) a lot of running. Thus far, I've been very successful in this area. I'm really happy to get back into my old training routine. It's not just a physical kind of training because I get to clear my mind in the process. I run at great lengths, sometimes two or three times a day, not only for the physical benefit - but also to think. I do my best thinking in two places: while running and while in the shower. I can't stay in the shower all day long, so I might as well run.

In addition to my training, I had wanted to dedicate this week to production at SUYM. So far, so good. Rollo and I churned out a new radio show, following the old "Crock & Murph in the Mornin" format. Download it here and have a listen. The DVD is also a topic of focus in the realm of SUYM this week. We're getting screens finalized this week and hopefully, this weekend, we'll have another build released. At this point its more housekeeping work than raw content implementation. We're trying to get an interface that's easily useable, readable and fun. We're almost there. The last of the content will be wrapped up shortly in the form of "commentaries" for several of our films. I, personally, can't wait to get this done and show you all. The quality of the films and the out-takes are hilarious. :-)

If you're reading this, hit me up. I'd like to hang out with you. Bring a DVD over to my place - we'll watch it. Call me - we'll talk. Email me (saintcrock@gmail.com) - I'll write back. Wanna go out to eat? - I'll make it happen (and I'll buy). IM me - I'm here. Let's go for a drive - I want to know what Headlights & Skylines mean to you...

-Crock

180.

Friends really rise to the occasion.

On Saturday, I spent the day preparing for my hockey game. I knew it was going to take pretty much everything I had to get there and play a really hard, fundamental game. I truly didn't realize how easy it would be. Given the recent events, I was hunkered down and prepared for the worst. Boy, I coudln't have been more wrong.

It all started when I went to pick up Ryan for my hockey game. When I got to his place, he informed me that four more people were tagging along. Holy crap. For those of you who know me well, you realize that this turn of events really changed my day. I absolutely love it when people come to my hockey games. It changes my game completely to know I'm actually playing for people that came to see ME. So, we pull back into my driveway and Ashley & Erica are right behind us. You can imagine the goofy smile I have on my face at this point. So now there's six of us all ready to go to my hockey game. Rollo pulls in and that makes seven. Add my mother and that's eight. Eight people all coming to see me. I was on cloud nine. :-)

Top that off with numerous well-wishes from LaResa, Jackie and Heather - this just about made my weekend. Seriously. Hey everybody, I'm still smiling!!! You are all amazing!!!

Partied on Saturday. Partied HARD. Partied with GOOD FRIENDS. This weekend totally did a 180.

I can go on and on about it forever, but I'm going to do a name-drop here and thank everyone who made this weekened absolutely unforgettable. Here we go:

Anne, Ashley, Ted, Rollo, Erica, LaResa, Jackie, Ryan, Kevin-the-Kevin, Humps, Danielle, Heather Nedzesky, Katie, Megan, Jed, Jesus, Heather, Ken, My entire hockey team, and last but not least - Mama. :-)

Everyone. Thank you.

...What a great weekend...

-Crock

Lack of Armor.

I swear, this morning was the hardest morning I've had in a long, LONG time.

It all started when I began recalling events from this past week. The week was overall good, but when you feel rejected - that's never a positive feeling.

I suppose I was in denial over it all (in case you haven't heard; in my infinately boneheaded ways, I managed to screw up yet another relationship). I try to see the good in everything that happens. I don't hold grudges. I just insist that "life is life" and let it be what it is. What the hell is it though?

Ted (who is wise beyond his years) once told me that life is a series of events that are nothing more than reaching for something you want, but never grasping it - or the opposite thereof.

In other words:
Dreams either come true, or they dont. Period.

It turns out that I was hurt worse than I had originally thought. In that regard, I just kinda fell to pieces this morning in the parking lot across the tracks in Cal. It wasn't one of my better moments. I'm not a crier by ANY means. I cried.

Since around 1996, I've not had a truly GOOD November. It's always been riddled with girl troubles, deaths in the family (or families close to mine) and just overall disappointment. It's only a few weeks into this month, but I'm not losing sight of what I'm trying to find. I'm really going to try to salvage a good November from this, somehow.

I'm not nearly as strong as I used to be. I can remember a time when I'd have shrugged this off like a mosquito bite. I suppose I'm not that same guy anymore. I suppose I'm a bit too sensitive. The fact remains that I like who I am, and I'm certain that there's another out there that feels the same way. I'm disciplined and patient. I'll heal.

If you're reading this, you're obviously a tremendous friend. To everyone that supports me:

Thank You.

-Crock

Forecast.

I completely figured out what was bothering me.

I have nothing to say about it.

Here's the weather:
Today


Mostly Sunny - High of 51F - Winds W at 5 to 10 mph.

Tonight


Mostly Clear - Low of 34F - Winds light and variable.


-Crock

Crock Dynamics.

There are so many changes going on anymore. I guess a good term for it would be "Crock Dynamics".

Crock Dynamics - (noun) 1.The ever-changing state of being in which Crock lives.

Yeah, that seems to work well. What I mean by this is that most every situation I find myself in lately seems to be something other than what it looks like - at least on the outside. There are situations that I was ABSOLUTELY sure of three months ago, that I'm now questioning. The few questions that I had, are slowly being answered. If I may borrow a line from the movie "Kicking & Screaming" - it seems like my life has, once again, become a whirling dervish.

Figuratively speaking, a week ago I'd have never guessed I'd be where I'm at today. There are so many new people in my life - and I can't thank them enough for sticking with me. The week is starting to plateau.

Overall, I'm noticing that patterns that I used to fall into aren't so much patterns at all anymore. I don't seek out the same people I needed advice from in the past. I'm a lot more open with my emotions. I lay a lot more on the line in terms of heart and soul. I try to give 100% to everyone and everything I do. I don't know if this sends the wrong message to the people I spend time with, but I feel everyone deserves a certain amount of respect. It seems I'm turning this blog into a culmination of "how I'm feeling today" lines. I feel fine.

At the same time, though, something's definately wrong. I seriously haven't a CLUE what is "stickin' in my craw", but something feels oddly out of place. It feels like something is just teetering on the edge, waiting for me to push it off and get to the bottom of it. I just can't say what it is. I'm sure I'll figure it out sooner or later. Wherever I go, there I am.

I don't even feel like mentioning the recent progress in the realm of SUYM. I'll do that in another blog. I just feel like I'm searching for something that isn't there.

-Crock

Monumental.

Hey all. November might not be as bad as I had originally feared. :-)

Last night, the entire SUYM crew packed into the studio and hammed out some AWESOME work. Big ups to Anne, Ashley, Ted & Rollo for all giving their time to get this DVD done! We even had time left in the night to begin work on another video! HOLY CRAP FINALLY A VIDEO FOR SEASON II!!!!! And I can't stop smiling! :-) !!!!!

Frisbee. We're on the virge of something great. I can feel it. Everyone seems so much more focused on improving. I tell you, everyone has taken great responsibility in regards to keeping this team on a path towards constant improvement. I can't thank them enough for being my friends. I need them more than they'll ever realize.

I've got some ideas as to what we're going to work on at practice this week as well. If you're reading this, I've probably already told you my ideas - so I'll spare you the repeats.

I've also got a lesser-known plan in regards to frisbee. Hopefully my recruiting goes well in the next few days, so we can get a few new faces on the feild. The plan involves a LOT of angst on my part, so I'm gonna buckle down and do whats best for this team.

I'm having a monumentally great day/week, and I hope it doesn't end. If I keep walkin' around this house with this stupid smile on my face, my parents are gonna think I'm on drugs or something.

I'll leave you with one last bit of advice.

"Don't ever give up. No matter how hard it is, don't ever give up. I need you more than you'll ever know."
-Joshua J. Crockett

Saturday Recap

Hey.

Saturday, for the most part, went well. The Ultimate Frisbee tournament at IUP was fantastic. Everyone played with an intensity so fierce, at some points, I was just awestruck. I'm so proud of this team. Incredible...

Hockey sucked. I scored a goal and knocked 2 dudes around, but the most important thing was that absolutely NOBODY came to my game. I'm so incredibly bummed out about that, it almost makes me want to stop blogging and go to bed... but I won't... Mama was supposed to go, but I guess she got sidetracked or was doing some work. Alissa couldn't make it either. I feel like crap. It really changes things, at least for my mindset, when I look in the stands and see somebody just sitting there for me. This sucks so bad... We ended up losing the game 8-5.

...November...

Why can't somebody save October?...

-Crock

Tongue Tied.

The whole reason I haven't updated this for a while is the fact that I can't seem to put my thoughts together enough lately to form a complete idea. Did you catch that? Good. I'm tongue tied. ;-)

I've got a ton of stuff to mention here, but who knows if I'll ever figure out a way to piece my thoughts together. All I know is that I'm happy. Very happy.

NEXT ISSUE!

Congrats to Ashley & Dan for callin' it "official" earlier in the week. You guys are definately good for each other and I hope you both have unforgettable memories together. (Okay, that got cheesy, but who's counting?)

NEXT ISSUE!!

Big Ultimate tournament coming up this weekend at IUP. I'm especially looking forward to it because it'll be my first experience in tournament play. I think the team as a whole is showing significant progress with each practice, and thats definately encouraging.

NEXT ISSUE!!!

Hockey game on Saturday after the tournament. I'm gonna be BEAT after the tourney. Alissa & Mama are comin' to the game. That makes me smile. :-)

NEXT ISSUE!!!!

Rollo & I have decided on a new format for the revamped radio show. We did a lot of freestyle broadcast scenarios in the studio a few nights back and determined that the style that flowed the best was "Murphy & The Aristocrat". This time, I'll be playing the role of Murphy (formerly, Murphy had been created & sustained by Rollo) and Rollo will continue his role as Mr. Aristocrat. I'm looking forward to good times!

It seems I've run out of issues to speak of, so I'm gonna call it quits for this episode of "Sex Panther".