Crock Dynamics.

There are so many changes going on anymore. I guess a good term for it would be "Crock Dynamics".

Crock Dynamics - (noun) 1.The ever-changing state of being in which Crock lives.

Yeah, that seems to work well. What I mean by this is that most every situation I find myself in lately seems to be something other than what it looks like - at least on the outside. There are situations that I was ABSOLUTELY sure of three months ago, that I'm now questioning. The few questions that I had, are slowly being answered. If I may borrow a line from the movie "Kicking & Screaming" - it seems like my life has, once again, become a whirling dervish.

Figuratively speaking, a week ago I'd have never guessed I'd be where I'm at today. There are so many new people in my life - and I can't thank them enough for sticking with me. The week is starting to plateau.

Overall, I'm noticing that patterns that I used to fall into aren't so much patterns at all anymore. I don't seek out the same people I needed advice from in the past. I'm a lot more open with my emotions. I lay a lot more on the line in terms of heart and soul. I try to give 100% to everyone and everything I do. I don't know if this sends the wrong message to the people I spend time with, but I feel everyone deserves a certain amount of respect. It seems I'm turning this blog into a culmination of "how I'm feeling today" lines. I feel fine.

At the same time, though, something's definately wrong. I seriously haven't a CLUE what is "stickin' in my craw", but something feels oddly out of place. It feels like something is just teetering on the edge, waiting for me to push it off and get to the bottom of it. I just can't say what it is. I'm sure I'll figure it out sooner or later. Wherever I go, there I am.

I don't even feel like mentioning the recent progress in the realm of SUYM. I'll do that in another blog. I just feel like I'm searching for something that isn't there.

-Crock