Back(Awesome) & Pissed(For Real).

Yeah, I'm back.

So sorry about the whole "blog abandonment" these past few weeks, but I've not been gone without reason.

About a week ago, my awesome girlfriend - LaResa - invited me to Oil City to spend a few days with her and meet the family. I really enjoyed my time there with them, so I ended up staying three days. I met a lot (and I mean A LOT) of good people who really made me feel welcome. In fact, its probably the best experience I've had with a significant other's family in all my years on this earth. They really are awesome people.

I then came home for a few days to work. Yay. Work. Its boring, however rewarding. We'll not go into it, but it involves (a great deal) of what I'm going to school for - Information Systems.

After a couple days of work I get a phone call from LaResa (she's still in Oil City) and we both agree its probably best if I came back up for a few (more like four) more days.

There's so much to say about both trips to Oil City. So many stories about the family, friends, relatives and kids (Autumn & McKenzie, especially).

Wrapping it up, today LaResa & I babysat her God-Daughter, Autumn. Autumn & I played "Dr. Squirrel" with a buncha dog toys, and Connect-4. God I love kids. :-) LaResa & Autumn decided that it would be funny if they dressed me up with accessories from the game "Pretty Pretty Princess"... I think LaResa enjoyed it more than Autumn... Ugh...

There you have it.

I just got back from work. This is seriously the first time I've spent at my PC all week. Sorry for the delay, I just have lots going on anymore.

And man, life is good. :-)

I'm in a rather "blargh" mood though. Lots of crap running through my mind. I've not just been spending time with LaResa lately, though. I've been doing a lot of learning via observation. Sometimes its just good to kick back and soak it all in - and I've been trying to do this as of late. I'm, very slowly, learning a lot about the quality of people.

Through the passed few months, I thought I made some key friendships - you know, friendships that have the capacity to endure and last. However, it seems I may have been mistaken. Some people, can appear totally and entirely on the straight & narrow. Some people appear dull, morose and outright bad. Then there's the type of people who are absolutely fake. Those, are the worst type.

I'm venting. Kill it here if you don't wanna read a vent-blog. Otherwise, here's what I have to say about what I mentioned above. I'm not the best when it comes to judging character. The reason behind this is because I purposely try NOT to judge character. I just want to let everyone be themselves and respect each person for who they are - because, after all, they are unique beings who are both fascinating and - at the very roots of it all - true to themselves. Fake people seems to have difficulty with being true to themselves, and therefore being true to others.

I've definately been misled by a close friend of mine, and I regret having not seen it sooner. I guess its my own fault for putting so much faith into somebody before actually knowing them. Shame one me for trying to see the good in people. Everyone deserves respect.

Characters like this; I do not need in my life. I consider them a "cancer"- a disease that breeds question in the things I should never come to doubt. They are a plague that courses through our social body and breaks it down for nothing more than unjust amusement. I don't tolerate this crap, and I certainly won't be part of it.

Life is far too short to keep looking over my shoulder to cover my back - since I should be always looking straight ahead. NEVER BACKWARDS.

So here's what I've come to know; I know my true friends. God knows I love them more than anything I can imagine. I know my family. God knows I couldn't and wouldn't be here without them. God knows that friendships forged are friendships loved. To break me by denying my friendships and love, is to hurt me. And damnit, I hurt.

Happy? You bet I am. I love life, my family, my friends and LaResa.
Upset? You bet I am. I feel awfully betrayed.

In the end, all I really was looking for is a person who can respect another person unconditionally. Somebody with morals, values and virtues. Somebody I can relate to. Somebody like me. I guess you weren't even close - though you really had me fooled.

On sleepless roads the sleepless go,

-Crock